when the music's over...

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 23:02:33 GMT

...i don't remember how lj works.
but i'm bored.
and still in love.
and now i'm going to get ready for school...

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 21:33:04 GMT

this has been the most stressful month of my life, but for some reason, i can't let go. i honestly think it's making me sick, though. i'm about to go to the urgent care center. i don't know what's wrong with me but i'm pretty sure that when the pains in your side are so bad that you can't walk, something is wrong. puking bile couldn't be that good either.

on the other hand, i'm extremely happy. how is it that i can have the worst and best day at the same time? anyway, something terrible happend, which led to an 'unofficial' engagement. i'm so happy. now all that is left to do is get the fuck out of woodstock so there aren't any more interruptions.

i'm in love.

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 05:36:12 GMT

i hate this.
i wish i would die.

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 20:14:00 GMT

ilovezachjessicaandjorgi.

jicks.

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 21:01:15 GMT

best christmas break, ever.

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 20:58:20 GMT

one more fucking day in this hell hole.

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 04:29:37 GMT

here's my kiss to betray...

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 20:24:29 GMT

clearly, i'm just a fuckup.

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 23:33:20 GMT

here's a good story i heard today...

alora fries: so my mom calls my cell phone from the house phone... i call her back on the cell phone.. i realize that my land line is ringing so i answer that phone and hang up my cell phone. it was jana's number on the caller id, so i call it back and my cell phone starts ringing.

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 20:59:36 GMT

so, this is basically what happens when i skip school...

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 22:44:03 GMT

Turn it up
Give me one time
I didn't think twice
It's fair that you know
It's alright that I doubt
I'd rather not say
I'm so duly impressed
I'd rather not say
Turn it up
Decisions for the whole
A reading and response
Parables that act out
I'm so duly impressed
Those books are thrown out
I doubt it
I'd rather not say
We're heading for digress
I'd rather not say
It's not because of luck
And if you say it again it adds to luck
Getting me to suggest this
I'll take it on the wrist
Gathering and existing
Bury your words
They're better unsaid
It's nice that you'll wait
I'm so duly impressed
So soft that you don't
It's not because of luck
And if you say it again it adds to luck
Getting me to suggest this
I'll take it on the wrist
Gathering and existing
You make the difference who comes out alive
You like to turn it around
Could I bet on it?
Who do you know that's better than that?
I'd like to take a look around so butt out, butt out
Could I bet on it?
I'll try it like this and wait it all out
I'd like to try my own true hand so butt out, butt out
You make the difference who comes out alive
You like to turn it around
Could I bet on it?
Who do you know that's better than that?
I'd like to take a look around so butt out, butt out
Could I bet on it?
I'll try it like this and wait it all out
I'd like to try my own true hand so butt out, butt out

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 21:36:46 GMT

rip, octavious.

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 21:29:07 GMT

so, i woke up today and i felt alot better, so i got all ready for school and everything. 10 mintues before i had to leave, i started shaking, like real bad. i was so effing cold. i suppose i got a mad fever and i felt like i was going to die. so i ended up not going to school. oh well. i needed to sleep. i'm waiting for my dad to be home in 10 minutes because then i get to go pick up the jetta...I'M SYKED! court wants us to go see her at work, hopefully the father will want to do that. here's 4 things that i'm looking forward to that nobody else is going to care about except me...

1. going back to woodstock next weekend.
2. moving back to woodstock in 25 days.
3. going on my roadtrip to jersey in april...[with jess].
4. moving to philly after summer.

i know i'm lame.

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 19:09:53 GMT

i had an awesome week and 2 days in the stock.
now i'm back in the atl.
oh well.
26 more days and i can move back.
i met a boy. he's cool as shit.
don't think he's interested.
WHATEV.

Thu, 24 Nov 2005 17:05:44 GMT

happy thanksgiving.

edit////
FUCK YOU.

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 19:38:25 GMT

this is going to be a good weekend,
i can tell.

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 23:53:16 GMT

woodstock

woodstock, a hot town just 30 mins from ATL! sure its in the middle of georiga but no one who lives here was actually born and raised in georgia we are all from the north! we are well off people with nice things in a bigger town than it seems but its really spilt into two towns, one downtown woodstock and towne lake (where us the sorta rich people live). everyone you know is always at the local supermarket so u really cant get a gallon of milk with out running into everyone and their mom.

"sure its in the middle of georgia but its a lot bigger than most towns!"

atlanta

a three "sided" city. uptown, midtown, and downtown. uptown = business, midtown = GHETTO, downtown = the fox. underground atlanta may be a popular tourist attraction but you will get shot once you go there after dark. home of rap and crunk, usher took voice lessons here. it's high class, even fo' the rappers. just don't go to college park. there are some gems, but, there's a lot of bad shit goin' down at any time of the day. the kids are preppy but act like they're black and gangsta, or they're just flat out emo. the guys wear girls pants, and most of them aren't rich. oh, and there's a lot of hispanics too. pretty diverse.
"Oh my gosh! You've been shot!"
"Yep, never shouldda gone to College Park."

toms river

Where everybody knows your name... because they're talking behind your back. Nights consist of riding up and down 37 and Hooper asking, "So what do you wanna do tonight?" Known nationally for our Little League World Championship, cancerous tap water, and the fact every corner has a Wawa LITERALLY. We gave you Piper Parabo and... We go to the beach, no "down the shore" shit. Seaside is always overrun by BENNY's and the waves are knee high (on good days), but the boardwalk is always good for a fight. Careful of the dunes, they're teeming with horny teenagers and Sand People. Our mall is beat and the best place to smoke up, Castle Park, is across the street from the fucking Police Station! Some MTV executive must own real estate here, cause North is always being Made and we hosted MTV SUMMER for 2 years!?!
Let's go to the TERD (Toms River Diner)!

what do you guys think?

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 02:22:24 GMT

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 03:57:37 GMT

i had one awesome weekend. i figured out that i'm not going to san fransisco anymore. it's too far away from home. i'm going to find a college in philly. i like that idea. you would understand if you saw me up north. it makes me happy.

Don't walk too close,
Don't breathe so soft
And don't talk so sweet,
And don't sing.
Don't lay, oh, so near.
Please, don't let me fall in love with you again.

Please let me forget all those sweet smiles,
All of the passion, all of the heat,
The peace, the pain,
All those blue skies, where your words were my freedom.
Please, don't let me fall in love with you again.

Too many times I've cared too much.
I stood on the edge.
And saw that you held my hand,
And knowing too well
I couldn't hide from those eyes
Please, don't let me fall please.
Don't let me fall in love in love with you again.

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 21:27:47 GMT

today was really boring until i got home and saw that ian mcdonald wrote me a message on myspace. that was really exciting. but that's about all that's been exciting in a while. saturday morning i fly to new jersey for the grandparents 60th aniversary. get to hang out with the jersey kids for a while. i'll be returning on monday. hopefully i get my jetta back tomorrow. if not i'm going to raise hell. that's about all i have. nothing really happens in this life of mine. not yet, anyway.

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 03:49:16 GMT

Venice Queen 10: what the hell are you doing?
Gatorrr69: nothing just got home from dinner
Gatorrr69: wbu
Venice Queen 10: hanging out...maybe going to watch some movies...WHO KNOWS.
Gatorrr69: cool stuff
Gatorrr69: if you want you can come over but im not allowed to leave
Venice Queen 10: me either
Gatorrr69: nothing to do here but
Gatorrr69: oo well that settles that
Venice Queen 10: i would feel real awkward around your mothers as well becuase you told her i was in rehab and all that stizzuff.
Gatorrr69: true. she was telling my brother about that at dinner too
Venice Queen 10: oh awesome.
Gatorrr69: basicallu
Venice Queen 10: why would you tell her that?
Gatorrr69: because she was saying that you were apart of that stuff and i said you werent you went to rehab
Venice Queen 10: that doesn't make it better...you could have just said i wasn't.
Gatorrr69: well she figured you were because the way you look
Venice Queen 10: so let's all go along with your mother's perception of me.
Venice Queen 10: what's wrong with the way i look
Gatorrr69: i didnt go along with it, i dont know she said you dressed like scrummy or something
Gatorrr69: i guess thats how she thinks of druggies
Gatorrr69: typical
Venice Queen 10: if i went along with my mother's perception of you, her thinking you're gay, i wouldn't just lie about it. i would say you're straight, like i did.
Gatorrr69: well i didnt agree with her saying you were a druggie i said you werent because you went to rehab
Venice Queen 10: that's still lying...
Gatorrr69: because you're stilla druggie
Venice Queen 10: that's still making people think that i'm something that i'm not.
Gatorrr69: do you want me to tell her your a druggie?
Venice Queen 10: i'm a druggie beucase i smoke pot?
Gatorrr69: yeah.. pot is a drug incase you didnt know
Venice Queen 10: i did know....then you're also a druggie.
Venice Queen 10: if i recal correctly, the whole reason this lie started was beucase you got in trouble for smoking pot.
Gatorrr69: yeah and i told her i did that one night
Gatorrr69: when have i done it since then or like a year before that
Gatorrr69: yeah i didnt
Venice Queen 10: sweet, you've still done it.
Gatorrr69: good job you recalled correctly
Venice Queen 10: alright, sweet. so that makes you a druggie if you have smoked pot.
Venice Queen 10: but that's not the point.
Gatorrr69: indeed
Gatorrr69: then what is
Venice Queen 10: the point is that you made some bullshit up about me going to rehab becuase you left some dumb note in your car. and didn't want your mother to think you're a druggie. so instead you made up some lie about me going being in rehab so you wouldn't get in touble.
Venice Queen 10: trouble*
Gatorrr69: no, i dont get in trouble. remember i run the show, and second off i was trying to make her think you werent a druggie so i would be able to hangout with you
Venice Queen 10: alright, let's recap. you were trying to make her think i wasn't a druggie by telling her i want to rehab, for being a druggie....but it doesn't matter because i look like one anyway, but it doesn't matter, beucase you look gay, right?
Gatorrr69: but it doesnt matter because you look like your fucking face got hit by a train and your nose looks like a fucking nigger nose
Gatorrr69: does that matter?
Venice Queen 10: wow, you really took offense to that. hmm. no, it doesn't really matter.
Gatorrr69: no i didnt take offense actually i was just letting you know how i feel thanks though
Venice Queen 10: you're welcome.
Venice Queen 10: what does it look like when a train hits someone's face?
Gatorrr69: http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=viewImage&friendID=3463536&imageID=23799233&Mytoken=C8EACA1D-6B4F-42F2-B7BEA3F0A2C0257895108921
Gatorrr69: that explains
Venice Queen 10: that's real clever of you to think of that all by yourself!
Gatorrr69: thanks

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 00:32:57 GMT

yeah.

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 21:07:44 GMT

i need to update, but i have nothing to update about.

leave me comments?

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 22:38:48 GMT

i'm in such a weird mood right now. it's that same feeling you get right after you walk out of the theater after seeing garden state for the first time. you just want to cry. and you want to say everything about your life all at the same time, but you don't know what to say first. you have all these plans for your life, and you really have no idea if any of it really is going to happen. you have all these things that you want to do, but never get the chance. there is always some sort of obstacle in the way. usually money, but that's america's awesome social system getting in my way again. for one night i want to be fancy. i want to be glamorous and elegant. go to a fance dinner. i want to go on a road trip and just be able to stop wherever i want to so i can take a picture of a bridge, or a lake, or kevin sitting on a bridge over a lake. i want my life to seem like i'm in a movie. i know everyone wishes that, but the worst thing that i could do right now is walk out of this room and everything be exactly the same as it is everyday. nothing we can do about that, really. anyway, i want to go see elizabethtown, and i want to get married.

SATURDAY NIGHT-SWAYZES-IN VITRO-BOBBY&VERONICA,DUH!

GO OR DIE

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 11:31:00 GMT